AITE!! i`ve been tagged-attacked by hidd !! hahaha. so, im gona continue the game. fr those who duno what im talking abt, you guys could go to www.hidds-.blogspot.com. yes, she cahnged her link again. hehehe. you guys noe her.. =)

Rule One

1. just like hidd, i HATE veggies. anything green. anything that has the word VEGGIE in it. bt the weird thing is, i like mushrooms and CABBAGES. some tho.
2. i have phobia of GUYS. yes. dont ask why, pls.
3. i have lotsa GAY frends. those who watch barney, and those who wants to be like barney.
4. i don`t appreciate praises. sorry!
5. weird thing is, im writing down stuffs abt myself that pple dont noe, and pple will noe eventually. weird ey.

Rule Two

1. Fiqah GEEK - youre so gona get this
2. Dayah! - you. YOU. you. YOU
3. FaLiq - dont hate me, man. gona tag ya.
4. AZ!! - you better do this one
5. Fazilah - i dont have her link at the moment, bt she`ll get it.

LAST RULE

YOU GUYS BETTER DO THIS, IDIOTS... PEACE!

its 2.06am nw.. and ALIAS is on Channel 5. just nw in the aft had ta go to my aunts hse to baby-sit the kiddos. hell yeah they are devils man. my other cuz jus couldnt stand them man. and i went thru hell when they slept over at my hse on friday. that faisal keeps pestering me. hitting me. playing comp. all dayy. and that faiqah is so vain. she keeps asking redundant qns and its so annoying. so glad they went home, bt kinda miss them. playing X-box at their hse jus nw was way fun. hmm yest went to gym with seha and lynn. did manage to have some muscles. hahaha. haiis. miss him dearly. when is he coming back. hope hes okay since his admittance to the hospital the other day. its killing me thinking bout his health man. he could`ve died. fxck. hes so impulsive. wish someone would knock some senses into his head. wish it was me. ughh.. dont wana think abt it. aite. outta my mind. out out out im outta here.

hooray hooray. exam`s over...

hahahaha. jack smelled the laughing gas and laughed his ass off. someone pushed him down bt he still laughed, till his friend told him his elbow was bleeding. his friends searched town fr that guy. wohhooo. last sun went to national lib and esplanade rooftop with cuzzie. wished i could bump into jack bt.. my luck. miss him badly. =( ohh k! my bdae rocks. on the night of 15 nov me, seha, lynn and gabe went down blk 512 or 509 to celebrate our bdae. yes OUR. mine and dayah`s bdae. hahaha. she`s the QUEEN lah btw so we had to come down to elias to see her. then i received THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER. i cant thank gabe and nab enough, cos they bought me the WE WERE SOLDIERS dvd. awww.. touched man, touched. it was the best war movie, after band of brothers. ok no, after thin red line. hahaha. then lynn and the rubber slippers grrl baked the cake. it was nice, bt i prefer them cooking pasta. awesome. so then, on friday went out with fiqah and fadz. take neo. eh, was it friday? think so. soooooooooo jus nw went to seha`s open hse. the food was GREAT. superb. SEDAP. it was fun lah over there. then pranked nadzirrr. he almost called the police man! im so blessed. harhar. well oh well.. wana watch I AM SAM soon. yeah. ok. knnbccb. give me 2 bucks only.

Selamat Hari Raya sey to all !!Ape seyy da rayer seyy.. gerek seyy!! maaf zahir dan batin ah! klau ader silap kater blablabla harap dimaafkan. nie tulas ikhlas dari hatiku ini tauuu.. ehehehehe. pagi2 bangun pegi masjid sembahyang. abe balek umah. abe baru nk tdo apit call. dier baru bangun tdo. abe bbual ah ngan apit.. bbual. Slamat ari rayer tu sumer ah. abe kiter bual karot. hahaha. abe aft one hour gtu maseh tkleh tdo. abe terlalu nantok sgt beh tertdo.. sampai kol 3.30 bapak kasi alarm clock. abang drive kiter sumer pegi umah Nek Mah. tapi de tkder pat umah bahalol btol kn. abe pi umah Nek Busu. Nek Mah and Nek Busu is my nenek nyer adek beradek. when i look at Nek Busu teringat my nenek. then i cryy cos i miss my nenek. nt cry lah but sad ah. then we go Nek Miah hse. Nek Miah is my nenek`s sedare. she very nyanyok already.. my nenek da lamer meninggal then she still ask my mum, "mak macamane sekarang?" i pity her hahaha. Then go Cik Dah hse eat ketupat and Co. then watch Rundown. then.. something happen then we go home. then nw i wana go and watch tv. BYE ! ohh aah. collection $25 jer aft going to 3 houses. ehehehehe..

hello hello ! im so darn bored. chatting with shiva. hi SHiva!! hahaha. okey so my door and gate are replaced with new one. couldn`t sleep that well cos the contractor was drilling away then duno what "masuk, masuk".. irritating sia. bt once the drilling is over then i cn sleep. until 3. joti called me a pig you see cos i always need 12 hrs of sleep. but its true! i do need 12 hours of sleep. the other day slept at 4am and woke up at 4. gerek ~ hahaha. so! i`m sooooooooo scared nw. O levels are in a few weeks time. wait a min. its in 11 days !! and im dead.. bye !!!!!

damn, kahlen lost!

I HATE YOU PPLE !!!!!

WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU LEAVING SO EARLYY ?!!

jus now the whole of spore taking O level had their science prac. all was sooooo stress. gerek see their face. damn! this time i did my prac slow and steady, and i realised i was running out of time. argh~ xuejing last min can still burn2 stuff. it was OK lah. not easy, not diff. but OK. then aft that we were quarantined in the auditorium. then we were released at 1.30. stayed back in school with seha and dayah. while dayah was doing her DNT me and seha lepak pat dlm TOILET. akrab ah lepak pat dlm toilet. then used the hand-dryer to blow-dry our hair. then my hair straight. then then we share2 how we feel like. and me, haiish. waiting for my silly boyfriend to come by. damn! hmm.. made my dogtag in the DNT room. nadzirrr, when the hell will you be buying my dogtag?! hah. he`s sloww. hahaha. mine is nicee. uber nicee. but i don`t know what to write on it. perhaps "I LOVE YOU is 8 letters. so is BULLSHIT". hah. orr "KISS MY ASS, LOVERBOY" or better off "KICK MY ASS" for uhh that HATERS.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee!! geramnyer. its ok. change your password for all i care. but if you dont like a7x, you might as well paste a "KICK MY ASS" sign on your back. omg omg omg. thursday is already my science prac!! im so scareddd ~

ok. 2 daes ago, i pinched malik`s tits, vacuumed his penis area. my spectacles fell straight into the jamban where malik dint flush away what he have released. i`m nt gona touch my infected specs. i had to retrieve it using the long scrub fr scrubbing the toilet bowl. jus nw went to elias mall. dayah had her hair trimmed and layered. THANK GOD it looked nicer nw. nenekk ohhhh nenekkk .. =)

21 minutes ago it was apit`s bdae, and nw its my mommay`s !! happy birthday you guys! at 12.00 exactly me and malek went to moms bedroom and woke her up and malek kissed her the longest and then he beat her up. the end.

hai kawan2! hahaha. jus got back home from johor! wow today was one helluva tired day. hehe. my first time ever i went shopping and actually buying things. everytime i go shopping, i get fickle-minded, and left the place without buying anything. so today there was my mom cos tmw is her bdae, then my bro`s gf, my bro and malik. all 4 of them MUST have a say in whatever things i buy, so i will know if i buy the right thing and won`t regret it. first stop went to city square. yeahahaha! punkr0ckers + street punks bombarding the streets. like wow~ then went to this uber cool shop. very gerek sia the shop. i feel like buying one whole shop!! they sell mostly punkrock + hiphop + skaters wear. i had to try on so many shoes and im sooo freaking stressed up i was abt to cryy!! my bro rub it in more. ughh!! ery berkenan dgn satu Vans shoe. black and red colour. tapi abg dier tk kasi!! so ery beli kasut Vans lagi satu colour black + white + light blue! bukannyer tk lawa, bt i still prefer the red black one seh. nk nanges seh. nvm lil shoe. you wait for me. i`ll save save my money and come by to rescue you. you tunggu i tau!! then settled for that RM 99.00 shoes and this black Quik jacket. i laid my eyes on this army bermudas but mom says dad will be angry. its okay. aft O level i`ll try to get it! and had no time to browse thru for clothes. so my bro bought his shoe. then malek and bro bought 3 shirts and a Quik bermudas. saw this punkrocker with awesome hair. so went to KOMTA or whatever. malek bought his straight cut jeans. then while mom was praying i msged wan. he got his hp back. aww~ okok. hmm.. da gtu my bro pergi shopping pat supermarket. balek rumah jer my mother kater, "abg kau tk bley harap lah! yg dier beli tepung byk2 tu buat aper?!". hahaha then kiter sumer buka at downtown. momma not angry with me anymoree. got my report book today. L1R4= 20 [minus CCA grade]. yeah. okey lah. masok poly pon dpt last. humphh ~ last day of school. BYE BYE.

to start it off, today is a not so sleepy day. had maths for 5 periods. duhh she took over our PE periods. but its okay, listened to my mp3. oiii !! aku nk ipod lah. nadiah gt nano ipod sia. best best. during malay gerek. take pic, take more pics and more pics. this fat malay tcher is kinda cool tho. he listens to punkrock/metal/pop/pop-punk/rock. you name it. hahaha. oh then aft school was FUN. took lotsa pics with Mrs Aziz. yeah my fav. tcher.then took with Mr sunface. hahahaha! was laughing when he said, "can you email the pics to my email add? its sunface@pacific.sg." hahahahahha!! then took with Mr Sim and Mr Tan. then took with Mrs Lee. yeah i think thats about it. tmw is my last day. arghh! gona miss mei yun. and shufeng. and xue jing. =(

on monday i had my new hair, and i look like a JAPANESE PORNSTAR. what a surprise!! but its okayy. hahaha. hmm.. last nyte dint get a good night sleep. watched America`s Next Top Model. i`m rooting for KAHLEN! go kahlen gooo! shes freaking awesome man. she`s funny. cute. super cute. uber cute. hahaha. she`s got a cute personality lah even though she may not look that cute. but what a waste. she`s nvr had a boyfriend. damn! why keenyah nvr out out till now seh. brittany got more of a model personality than keenyah. brittany is uber sexay. naima is.. i duno how to say. she can be a model. she don`t have much of a model`s personalities.. but she can win i guess. but i hope kahlen would win!! hahaha. bcos of last night i slept in class for 15 minutes. was sooo sleepy i jus can`t keep my eyes open!! its kind of an aftnoon nap for me. hahaha. and now i`m still sleepy. i still havent finish my malay compo!! humphh~

are ya ready kids?? AI AI CAPTAIN! i can`t hear you! AI AI CAPTAIN!! ooooooooooooooo... jus woke upp.. cranky as usual. im still sleeeeeeeeepyy!!!!!! i wana sleep i wana sleep i wana sleeeeeep.. tadi pagi makan dengdeng. last nyte chatted with that turkey guy. he asked for webcam again. i accepted then i saw him. HIM. him. HIM . freaky dude. he seems like in his mid twenties. back combed hair.. pikeh dier M.Shadows kape ?!?! then.. he started rubbing his chest. hairyyy~ that hairy chest really turn me off!! sexyy.. NOT!! harhar. padan muker kene ketawekan. he looks turkey-ishh.yea duhh he`s a turkishh. TURK. damnn! i miss skateboardingg.. i wana skate to dayah hse but mom says its dragerous. hey. i havent even called dayah to ask if wana go studyy! heyyyyy~~

sup yo! hahahaha. jus came back home from terawih. hahaha. went to loyang point and withdraw 50 bucks. my monayy!! later wana buy prepaid. tomorrow might be gg down to dayah hse to study again. haha. to dayah: DAYAH BSOK KAN AKU DATANG RUMAH KAU. AKU BAKAR RUMAH KAU. MUAHAHAHA. AKU TAK KESAH!! k lah chiows! nk tdo. mak pat sebelah. bising ajer. dgr tu maa !!!

oh yeah. something great happened today. had our SS remedial after school. we went to toilet to cut my fringe. then we were the last. left me, fiqah, joti, az and fadz. yes! the school had closed the gates at the stairs and we had no way out! so, me, being the BRAVE one. hahahaha. went to climb first. i managed to climb to the other side. then it was joti and then fadz. then fiqah. then....... nak tunggu az panjat mcm nk tunggu bulan jatoh. abe last2 dier give up. then, after what we did, climb here and there, then az found an easier way down. near the canteen the stairs open sia. basket. waste my breathe only. but its gerek lah. joti got to overcome her fears. proud of ya ma baby!! i will never forget my babies!! nyiehahahaha.

damn! finally i`m blogging again. hehe. the modem was transferred to bro`s room. soooo here`s what you`ve been missing. loads of fun!! yeah on tuesday. the second day i woke up FUCKING early. 6.00 can you imagine that!! gawd.. i can`t seem to keep my eyes open in class. the atmosphere was freaking moody and i get to doze off.. till AZ! woke me up. damn it! then since i woke up early, mom gave me 5 bucks. gerek kn!! then after school went over to dayah`s hse at blk 606. so the 5 bucks i spend mainly on food cos its the last day i`m gona have to eat as much. then we went to study at blk 608 void deck. we were bored, couldn`t concentrate so dayah planned to play with fire. we made a bonfire where we burnt the boxes and leaves. then played at the playground. mcm budak2 but who cares! played blind mice. seha is the #1 liar!! she cheat alot. then it was my turn. i`m not good at sensing so i fell many times. fell over the steps. the sliding thing. the rungs. my mouth hit the handle bars. we were freaking exhausted. was walking back to dayah hse when my leg got trapped in the drain and i freaking fell!!!!!!!!!! malu sia. seha and dayah ketawe rabakz siak. eeeeeeeeeeeee. then went home lah! no further details. wednesday slept in class again. so did thursday. and so, today. had my fringe cut off. i was on the verge of crying! hate it man. i look like a mad emily and cleopetra tak jadi. at that time the person from the overseas educational programme called. its like, our grades are satisfactory, not excellent nor fair. its at least OK. but the thing is we are financially in debt so they offered us a scholarship. i mean we would be lucky if we get the full scholarship. so i guess i would give it a try. who knows. i could meet ZACKY there! weeeee!! its a one and a half year course. along with another 2 years to continue to university. yeah.. so longg guys!

today morning was kinda cranky for me. yes, i woke up early. well let me rephrase that. yes, i was FORCED to wake up early. mom had a garage sale down blk 547 beside the longkang. woke up at 8.30 then mom left first to set up the stall.. then i thought i need not bring the rest of the items there and leave it for ab and the bastards to bring it there. hahaha. well ab and zai lah. but they were sleeping and it is already 9 am. mandi ker tk mandi, i left the house wearing my PE shirt and jeans. rambut mcm org gila, tk sikat pon. then i also nvr wear my contacts nor my specs. malek had asked me to go first bcos he have problems with his own items. i was buta. i cant seem to find my way there. suddenly i was at blk 554. then panic. 547. 554. hahaha. so jauh berbeza!! when reach there already the next prob is i cant find my mom. i squint and squint my eyes like hell!! dah sah buta seh!! ahh.. lega hati dapat jumpe dier. abe lepak pat saner kejap. abe balek abe mandi. mom had an appt with her client so malek had to tend the stall alone. hehe. then seha called and ajak me go study at airport.. but last minute my kakak sedara dgn 2 anak dier, dgn laki dier, dgn mak dier, dgn kakak dier peh 3 anak dgn adek dier peh satu anak dtg. hahaha. past seh rumah. 6 anak altogether. all grrls. then kena jage and entertain the budak2. kewt2 seh. Kak Ija punyer anak name Munirah and Mushirah. Kak Lis one is Elisya, Erdina and Eliya. and Kak Nana punyer is Adrianna. hahaha. style2. satu hari tk makan seh.. lapar!! the horrorrr~~~ narie tkder ayam!!!

oh hehe. blogging again. duno ah. i read the flasher`s blog. dayah lah saper lagik. hahahaa. i remembered the other tim when we went to central.. i slipped on a puddle of water when i wana avoid it!! paisey. gawd. at that time dayah jus wanted to say that she pity me cos im alwaex the target of the morons. then when that happened she took back her words sia. idiot. paiseh. paiseh. hahaha. tapi biar ah!! hahaha. now the embarassing part to embarass this azwani. neopix! P.S: i feel and lookk the TALLEST in the pix!!

oh what the hell. you duno what lies beneath ahhhh !

retards, say ahh~ AZ MUKER STEAM!!! sweet LADIES ok

arghh!! was late today again!!! i`ve had it man. asek2 kene marah. this time was fucken siti. fuck sia. ughh! she called home. leong called home. everyone loves my mom. then had to brisk walk around field 3 times i think. gawd.. this few days have been fucken hot sia. humid humid. during home room leong gave out our class photo!! yey yey. finally my picture was perfect for my last year. goshh~ amazing! hahaha. i got the informal one to be real big. 8R. the candid and formal was small. memories of class 4e2. the lazy class. idiot sia mr sim. oh well aft school went to study chem with fajrina. i hope she learnt many things.. cos i think i dint teach her enough. im so distracted. then we have Social Studies remedial at 2.30. class was divided into 2. the clever ones did the exercise while the stupid ones did revision. well i was the stupid side. wakakaka. i only know merger.. not much abt separation. so then, stayed back at the hut with gajos, kambeng and this idiot. hes an indian and his grandmom is chinese!! wakaka. then at 5, me and kambeng left. yes yes. kambeng is APIT. hahaha! he walked me home. then we saw what apit claimed to be akiff`s father. we were arguing that that person is not akiff`s dad. it was goin to rain. sky was cloudy.. sun`s hiding behind the big puffy clouds. hahaha. well, he is kambeng bcos he said that he was afraid of the rain. and yeah! kambeng kambeng kambeng was what he chanted all the way till the junction where we had to depart. hahaha. bye bye. cant see ya in school next year. gona mish you guys loads. and LOADS. kambeng baaaaaahh~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA !!!!!!!!

hahaha. sorry leh! its not i forgot.. i remember. its that i forgot to wish you! hahaha. 28th september nadia bdae. late by one day only. yeah. on monday was ARIFF`s bdae. wakakaka. so, overall prelim results, i flung my combine humans, and my malay drop giler. i was fucking fucking fucking disappointed with my malay. gosh.. haiiz.. duno what to say seh.. makin terok ah. fuck fuck fuck. god help me.. my L1R4 was not satisfying at all.

now i realise that i cannot afford to lose my friends. gawd.. i don`t ever wana leave Coral! hw can i face new pple in new schools.. haiz.. i love my secondary school frends siia.

damn it.. i FAILED my combined humans. shiet. and my malay was like.. babi siia.. tried my best but i got a b4. 53/80. disappointing siia. arghh!! luckily my darling had comforted me. the one that had a huge impact on me was my social studies. i mean wth sia. i studied hard fer it. dint think that i could fail just like that.. wonder how my Os will be like. WORSE i assume. in just an hour my darling made me realise what humans are. that we feel the same way and stuffs. haiis.. when we had to leave, i realise that i will lose someone very special. someone that fucking mean a lot to me. dude, tears were streaming down my cheeks when we turned our back against each other. i know that we would go our own separate ways. I KNEW IT. but.. haiz.. i just wish that time would just slow down.

gosh!! got my prelim papers today. did well for maths paper 1 ONLY. hahaha. duno what will happen to paper 2. gt A1!! yeahahaha. then chem was alright.. combined science can get roughly C5. geog was way terok. failed paper 2. dint get to finish sia wth! lost about more than 30 marks. well i gt 43, joti gt TWICE my marks!! idiot!! hahahaha. congrats to ida. very proud of her. she improved! hehex.. then that was what i got today. hmm.. cant wait for my malay. scared i dont get any As.. arghh!! stress.. stress.. kk. then aft skool walked to central with the five besties. the two morons [dayah and seha] kept chanting "porno watcher porno watcher porno watcher", "hooker hooker hooker" and "stripper stripper stripper". hahaha! see i told you guys, they are RETARDS! hell yeah! hahaha.yeah. ate ice cream with jotii. she is a geek. i hate her!!

so! on thursday, 22nd september 2005, i went out with 3 full pledged idiots named seha, az and dayah. they were utterly amazing, showing me their circus skills. they entertained me all day. seha was my unfortunate partner. no, no. i was seha`s unfortunate partner! but i love her as my lesby partner. she rawks! so, buddy system buddy system! being the big sister there, me and dayah had to take care of the other 2 december babis. hahahaha. ate at LJS. met FATTAH. hahaha. gossipped abt him. i want to sue LJS cos they serve the worse TREASURE HUNT meal!! hahaha. idiot. then we go to ToySrus. seha btol ah. hahahaha. mcm cacat. dayah kept making fun of me!! nanti kau dayah, jage kau! you see, i was really in love with this remote controlled airplane. you should see the expression on my face; not one to LAUGH at but one to be inspired. cheyy!! kau dgr tuu dayah. hahahaha! da huru-hara huru-hara kiter amek neoprint. kecoh seh! the machine was like. "Bjdghhewd". idiot. i dint wana go take neoprint seh. cheyy! hahaha. one of the pic si azwani tuu muker steam!! wait i put up the neoprints. hahaha. kiter take 81 balek. seha cacat lagi. hahaha. then on sat went to lavender to take bursary. was late thanx to.. ME. hahaha. so tk dpt get the bursary by presentation, you know must shake hand. but after that got get lah. you know what i mean. okey! we went to wedding at katong cc take 12! gosh gt this fucking and i swear FUCKING handsome guy, he was like so freaking.. gosh!! i duno how to say. he got that model body, can fucking win jon johnson. he wear white collared tee which is stark on his body. woooo!! hot*hot! he wear his shades with his black painted nails and his hair is SLICK. mr SUAVE. goshh ~ he look modsy siia. eh his hair rock siia. then sumore his flawless skin.. clean and fair skinned. oh wow! he got a muscular structured jaw. siallah can melt sia. gosh i was melting in the bus. oh what the heck. hahahaha. okey he is charming. damn~ then at the wedding my mom busted me. cos i using skool uni then must sit outside sia cannot come in cc. the best part is, we went to arab street later!! went shopping and shopping. look for lining and lace for my this year baju kebaya modern! yey yey its WHITE. seha, wana be my lesby partner? wana wear white? hehe! kk.. went shopping and shopping around arab street. mom pampers me with stuffs this year cos its my last year. and she planned to make another baju raye for me. i dont want!!! wasting money sia. so, went home. yeah went home. today went mosque with malek and parents. went home straight away sleep till 5 sia. sleepy sleepy. ohh.. hehe. nadia, do you want to listen to lighthouse or firehouse? hahahahkz!

i wana go home~ hahaha this song fiqah keep singing. AND danial beddingfield`s "if you`re not the one" is stuck in my head!!! bcos of tt freak, JOTI. thank you, JOTI. "i hope i love you all my life~".. nyiehahahas!! idiot.. oh well yest i gt social studies which rock loike hell!! i`ve made my greatest achievement!! after 4 years of doing unfinished humanities essays, i FINALLY GET TO FINISH THE PAPER!! wahooo! tts what i`m proud of. i`m proud of ma baby. wakakaka! welo welo ida belo!! hahaha. woii cheeseball! bila mau pegi tgk wayang?! kater jer nk.. wa rebat lu.. hahaha! k chiows!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG !!!!

hehe.. today its my big bro`s 24th bdae!! hahaha. jus nw gt maths.. maths okay ah cn say easy.. bt geog!! fuhlermakk!! susah gilerr.. dint manage to finish it.. den after skool went to shop in front of skool. bought brownie fr my bro! see! my savings of $2.20.. all down the drain. hahaha. cos u noe what? i came home.. and saw a big box of brownie! her gf give laa.. hahaha. he say he full already. bt at least i remembered his bdae! hahaha. my mom laughed. cos she say he pity my bro cos like we hina him. me n his gf buy brownie fr him.. da lah dier hitam. haha. busted siia my mom. cool! haha. k lah tts all.. EYB!

so i had my eng prelim paper which suck like SHIT!!!!!!! tt was fucking paper 2. made many careless mistakes i noe i shouldn`t have made. fuck fuck fuck. damn it what if i fail???!!! shit!! da laa.. what`s done is done. look on the brightside.. wait till i see hw much i get for my prelims then i cry.. alaa.. k laa nvm. EYB!

hehe just came back home from my aunt`s. she wanted to sell her house, and someone wants to come over bt she was alone at home with her granddaughter who is such a bitch. hahaha. since my mom was fasting and my aunt is old and alone, i volunteered to come over to help. my mum is kinda weak when she fast so i really pitied her and put my studies aside for awhile. weee! it was freaking raining took 39 there. i tot i was lost bt luckily i found my way there. her adopted granddaughter who was abt.. 3 yrs old? name ameera.. or WANT to be known as siti nurhaliza. shes so freaking irritating bt fun to be with. she keeps on hitting me!! idiot!! i want to eat also tkde PEACE ! and when i feed her she bit my fingers. ewww!! she hit my head with TWO botol susu. busted siia.. pikeh kepale aku mainan ker.. bt all my "hardwrok" there was paid off with 5 bucks.. syillings. hahahaha. bt yeah i love my aunt like i loved my late grandmom. missed her.. oh well! it was raining with thunder at lightning. my aunt dint let me go till it was 6.30 and i left. when i was at the bus stop, tgh diri nyer diri.. skali gt a flash of bright white light right in front of me! gosh i was freaking out. took 39 home. and i was breathing very heavily when i reached home. gawd! the pathway home was full of stupid worms! idiot!!!!!!!!!!!

to start it off, today was one hell of a day! gt my prelims practical. i did a mistake in my physics prac. shucks.. lost 2 marks. bt chem wasn`t that bad.. i hope. then we were held up in auditorium till 12.30pm. dint do much.. jus crapping around and talking non-stop bullshit abt stuffs. yeah STUFFS. NEWS. tts the terms me and idz use. yeap.. and aft skool az fadz and geek went to delifrance to hv their lunch. joti went back home. and as fr me, i hang ard with wan and hamdan. thats when man pendek and wan gadget came that i hv to leave cos i don`t fit in. nw im feeling so lonely. the rain is pouring.. just the way i like. it makes me feel happy. hope it rains like this every single day. i will love my life. when rain pours down and there is mist which makes it sooo cooling, i imagined myself being at esplanade, riverside. its so peaceful.. or in LONDON! i love it, i love it. wish and wish. hope and hope. dream and dream.

haiis. looking out of the window, my life flashed past me. friendship, love, family are all part of my life. studies, well yeah sort of. haha.. somehow i feel like i don`t fit in. i`ve made many friends, hope i don`t make enemies along the way. just nw after skool i was with wan. we were nt as b4. we dint talk much; there`s nothing to talk abt! it feels like i don`t fit in. i hate being pushed around. i hate being a lamppost. i hate being ALONE. i feel that im losing friends more than i make friends. some friends hav started their new life and cast me away. well i think SOME. i don`t know. im just being stupiid. i just don`t know why i just can`t stand up for myself. why the hell can i stand up for my friends, bt not myself?! shitonics.. so not in the mood right now. gota cool myself down first. signing off.............

hah! same experience with GEEK. saw Mr Roach in my house. my BEDROOM. tt happened 3 daes ago while i was chatting then suddenly ewww!! it was fucking right beside me on the window grills and i fucking freak out! like duhh i ran outta my room and alerted the whole house. mom was the brave one. she wrestle with Mr Roach with only her hands! and i was like ewww!!and i immediately switched off the comp and slept in my moms room! teehee. and the next day was Mrs Roach. she died, sadly.. my brother saw it and took my paper and BAM! Mrs Roach was crushed. =) sad eyy.. hehe! malek became the cleaner. i told him to throw away the paper even tho i duno wad paper tt is. oh well, last night was Lil Roach bad dayy. suffered and tortured under the hands of ERYY. hah! it sure looked like a cockroach. it was the size of.. an ANT! bt slightly bigger and rounder. i took a small transparent cup and with full blasted courage and semangat yg gemilang, i placed it on top of tt small flying Lil Roachh. goshh! abt an hour later or so, i still kept close watch on it till it overturned and capsized. hehe! im nt bad its jus tt grrr cocokroaches really ruin my dayy. beating roaches cn be fun. you cn feel the excitement in you and also the hair at the back of your neck will surely stand. freakyy huh. dont mess with eryy you lil ROACHES!

today nvr go out. standard ah. bangon kol brape. i was woken up by lagu green day malek played on the comp. irritating sia!! den my annoying jiran wana pindah. yay! hahaha. okey lah. mayb part of me want them to go bt part of me dont let ah. nanti sunyi seh tingkat 3.. den ab came over. introduced to him n malek "pantene leave-on mosturizer". hahaha. jakon seh satu2. hey guesssss wad! yest i watch HOT CHICKS. mind you, its nt WHITE CHICKS. was funny ah the show. abit disgusting.. tt rob schneider is funny. and the show also sad sia. abt frendship n relationship. almost cried. hahaha. kental ah eryy. k tkper. gt one guy name billy is kewt. hahaha. okay go watch!!! hahaha. den last night i gt 2 weird dreams. one was fucking weird the other one was more fucking weird. hahaha i will tell abt the more fucking weird. it was on a scholl day and i told my parents i want to go out. i went out with az, fadz, fiqah, shaz n nab. those pple were the ones i remembered in my dreams. i tink my cuzzie also gt ah. wokey.. den all1 2 3 4 5 6 of us go airport. took a 7 n a half hour plane ride to london! serious. ngan baju skola n bag skola skali.. hahaha. den wen reach there so many things happen n i cnt figure it out. suddenly i met my uncle. uncle sghdhsg i duno his name. he said he is my uncle. den suddenly i met dis guy. he seems to be my bf. its like my memory all erased n cnt rmbr him. he suddenly leaned on me n hug me n stuffs n i was like wth. den many things happened, soon it was daytime there. the scenery was so nwice. was cold. morning dew.. den there is those misty2.. wow.. den suddenly my cellphone ring. n tt was my dad. he was like "pukol brape nk balek nie! da kol 12 mlm pon tk balek2!" den i was like wth! i looked at the clock on my phone and saw tt it was 11.45 PM! den fiqah was like.. the sun rises in the east and sets at the west. haha. n i noe tt i wud be dead if i were to reach home 7 n a half hour later! bt it was fun tho. coolios! wished i cud cont my dream bt wth!

yest and todae gt mock den i semangat yg gemilang i go. shitonics siia must wake up in the morning.. bt den i slept in the hut a while ah siia.. den mrs aziz my fav. tcher blanje canadian pizza. gerek eh! all together fr e2 n e3 gt 16 boxes! tt means she oredered 8. cos its 2 4 1 0 2 4 1. hahaha.. i ate the BBQ chicken. sedap siia!! serious shit.. sedap giler. den i ate one meat lovers. nt much happened dis few daes.. nima slept over. oh did i tell u tt? aww pityy u!! she went back home on mondae. i sent her to ct hall den went to coffee bean! siallah gt dis kewt guy work der. hahaha. aper lagik nima kluakn hp ah. she took his pic. no i mean i took the pic for HER. hahahha. yesterday go MUSTAFA CENTRE! oh wow! reach there only i happy siia! feel like in bollywood movie.. hum tumhe pyaar karte hai~~ weee ! hahahha. gereks gi shopping and buy impt stuffs! ate at ABM. nasi bryani dier power! pedas gilerrr!! den went hm.. watched SOUL PLANE. fuck it! its a must watch siia. gerek ah the show. ONE LOVE! PEACE! hahaha. damn funny siiak the show. i tink its rated M18 cos there are some mature themes. hahaha. oh wth! its freaking funny yo! hehe. k lah wana chow. oii! prasaan tk? ader skin baruu! my face lagik. nima was the photographer. hey yo bitch! thx yeah. lurve ya! MUACKS!

sup ya`all ! nyiehahas . tadi tgk cerite ALI SETAN abe tertido . makk ngantok seh . eh guess wad ! yest i shud call "My Brothers Day" cos both freaks make me happy and fulfil my cravings . was watching the kewt lil` brats in kindergarten cops , wen i saw wad i saw . MILK . hahahaha ! its been a day or two since i had my last milk and suddenly i was craving fr it . den like 15 mins later my big bro came home from duno wer at bought 2 HL milk bottle ! wah0o ! hahaha . i drank half of it . yo , i wana be tall dude . den aft tt , i`ve longed fr a snowcap . dont blardee hell ask why i want a snowcap , bt yeah i`ve been wanting it wen on tt same night , malek brought home a black SNOWCAP ! nyiehahaha . i tried it on . he looked gd on it [yea ryte ~] . den tried it on . hey guess wad ! im gona cut my hair my own style . saw one of nadzir`s d.p . the emo grrl . preety nwice hair . i reali want tt . hahaha . nwice . hehehehuhuhu . okay lah . duno ah suddenly i feel bad aft reading her blogg . =(

hey h0 ! haha . change skin . planning t0 change again c0s something is wrong wiv d tagboard !!!! ishh ! buat penat jer . hiiishhh !!! yest late fr skool AGAIN .. den hv to wait outside the General Office . fr0m 7.30 till 8.45 .. Leong siang2 da call my mum .. den aft tt cikgu Siti plak call . siak ajer . hahaha . den sundram plak wana call . ah give up ah .. asek2 gi skola lambat padehal umah pat sebelah jer . hmm .. todae is Teachers day ! hehe . the concert terok ah . tk gerek ah . wadever the hell ah . arghh ~ geram .. my frend showed me her blog . i saw . yes i saw . n i was like . gosh ! wad siiak . why the fuck am i called a bitch ? why cant she jus come forward to me ? scared ? wadever lah . name calling zaman budak2 eh feeq . i duno ah wad to say . pissed off . nvr been called a bitch bt bcos of one guy im called a bitch . yeah , a bitch . wad does a bitch mean ? woahh ! maaany2 many2 diff meanings . bt why bitch ? why nt slut or whore or prostitute ? im nt up to tt standard ? hell yeah im nt ! so dont fucking talk shit behind my back ! tk suker bleh ckp kn . luckily my best frend tell to cool it off .. or else , revenge is SWEET .

Yeahh ! Dayah helped me to edit my pics ! Thank you.. Trying to find neww blog skin . Getting tired of this one . Haha . Hmm .. On Tuesday Malek went to the Slipknot gig . Busted sia he lie to my mom . I`m gona tell mom ! Hahahaha . He got the Slipknot guitar pic and a giant poster . Fucken big sia . He already gt GC pic then want this one some more . Today got scolded by Loeng again . Why uh , everyday if see her alwaex must fight ? Haiss don`t know leh . Have to bear with it fr another 3 months ! And my late-coming record have improved . I don`t think I`m one of the top ten anymore . So tk gerek . Hahaha . I think today my entry will be short . Wana sleep !!! So sleepy .. When am I never sleepy .. Okay ah , Chiowx !

At least he doesn't call me "IDA BODOH! IDA BODOH!" anymore. Not anymore. When he said that it really hurts me and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to.

*<3 <3 <3 , Ery*

I have a brother. But that doesn't mean I only have one brother. I have got 2 to be precise. But today I am going to talk about one of my brother, Malik. He is the typical type of brother you see around. The way he treats you as a younger sister. The one who likes to bully you. The one who orders you around. The one who threatens to beat you up if you dare to tell your mother that he didn't attend school. The one who hallucinates your mother to disallow you to go out but he himself enjoys his night out with his friends. I was the younger sister. And still am. He is the one whom I feel like killing. We love to fight, you see. But that was before. Now as we grow older, we started to see things in a different way. I started to love him, for he have a very unique feature which is buried deep down inside of him; a nice and caring gentle giant. We shared our problems in our love life. I told him every single part of my love life -- from my crushes to my admirers, and to my loved ones. And he told me his too. He have also reminded me that never to trust guys. He gave me advices on the guys out there. When I told him about a guy, he said, "Don't go for this kind of guys. I know him. He's not good." But hey, I've got my own life dude. I didn't listen to his advice and did the opposite, when one day I came home, lost in tears and feeling dejected. I should have listened to him. I fell for sweet chanting words which are just so untrue. Yes, guys just cannot be trusted. Well at least SOME. You know who you are if you are reading this. The you could be any guy who have done this. I just don't understand why. The ones I used to trust before are now insincere and unfaithful. Dating with other girls when you yourself are already attached. You think your girlfriend didn't know? Well she will know, that is after I tell her. You have already broken the lady's heart. And not forgetting shattering her hopes and dreams. You said you are devoted to her, will love her all your life or even say the ridiculous, "I would die without you." Well you know what, that is all bullshit. I feel foolish. Stupid. Used. Well that's okay because I won't be as weak and gullible the next time round. If you don't get my point, it means that I'm not going to sit around acting like a stupid cunt but to stand up for my rights and be strong. GO ERY !!!

fuck siia .. todae was a fucking bad dae . bad bad dae . bt luckily its nt FRIDAY THE 13th . gt my malay O level results . fuck siiak .. i dint get wad i aimed fr n i studied hard fr it .. its loike , all my hopes are shattered n i tot i cudnt make it animore . in d hall everyone rushed to see their grades . wen i get to see i was so shocked den suddenly i was so crying . i fuckingly dint expect to get tt kinda grade . B3 is so nt gd enuff .. worse still , i hav studied reali2 hard fr it . i duno wtf went wrong . B3 is worse than F9 cos its loike in d middle between d pass and average . to others it might be enuff bt to me its nt ! i planning to retake .. yeah .. n i dont tink its a blardee waste of time . as long as i get wad i aimed fr den im satisfied . den aft all those fucking crying n sobbings wiv az , i finally gathered my courage to face up to the O level stupid shietss .. n den aft skool is my O level eng . loike wtf siak . todae is d fucking big dae . its all abt O level .. bt i screwed up d last part of d conv. i actually cudnt hear wad d invigilators said bt i jus sumbatkn jer la .. bla bla bla .. haiishh .. wtf wtf wtf . i wonder hw nima n nadia are doin ...........

my gawdd ~ im SICKK . nt as in im sickkening bt im reali SICKK . i`ve gt cold n flu n cough . tell me hw much worse it cn get . hate beiin SICKK !! wake up onie voice change loike man voice . da break ah . cheyywahh .. cant stop sneezing n coughing . n i havent eaten any medicine for d past few daes tt im SICKK . n d virus is getting to my brain i cn feel it ! pain sia my head .. n i jussss ate panadol . n its reali kicking in i feel abit drowsy .. i guess .. haha . jus nw watched d coral concert band perform at paragon wiv idz , fadz n fiQah . i promised shu feng already tt i wud b der . n i did ! haha . xue jing complained tt im late . hehe . n shahid .. he tried to talk to me bt i simply gave quick replies . hahaha . badd eryy .. wana tell him some stuffs bt some tings are better left untold . haha . took many2 snapshots . and ah , some grrl came up to us and took our no. and gave us a business card called "iMODELLING" . suckky . will nvr pose or be a model . yuck yuck . if she call i will nvr wana pickk up d phone . so , reached hm todae at 7.30 aft meeting mommay . btw , thx fadz ! n especially YOU , fiQah !! hahaha . woii fiQah ! gi upload gambar laju2 beh kasi aku kaes !

bad day bad day bad day !! to start it off , todae aku puasa . yess ! i fast ! fasting is gd . cn lose weight easily n be thinner . commercials cud present d notion tt fasting is gd fr those weight-concious pple . hahahaha . den tt bastard leong make ida cry . den i fire up at her n kena lecture . mostly cos of latecoming n all tt shiet . all tt takes up abt .. abt 1/2 n hour i guess . arghh !! gona go crazee fr another 3 months ! n den im outta coral . bt i adore her as my maths tcher , nt my form tcher ! dint mean to b rebellious at her bt stupid words jus come outta my mouth without me realising it n den she sae tt i said someting tt makes her angry . den wen i tink back , i nvr said aniting . hahaha . tts hw u feel wen ur angry . so shietty . tt was d furs tcher tt i rebel to . bt d weather is nwice todae . i loike rainy daes .. its soothing . =)

yOoOsSs .. yest gt PE den play netball . gt hurt at 5 joints . my left n right knee . my right shoulder . my left n right fingers . bwahahaSsSs . dis time clash wiv dayah , nt ying xuan . haha . todae gt no physics ! yey .. nie uh apit ! pengecot tk berani nk fight ngan gue . hahaha ! hurlemerk apit ! sini uh ! siallan tols . haha . oOoOo lah lasS .. malek tore his heels yest . woahh ~ was a big scrap mann . till cn see d meat . flesh . blood. blood clot oozing out . i was d nurse . he mus b thankful to hav a sister loike me ! muahahahaXxXx ! aww .. todae is chiana boy's last dae . damn it ! hahaha . gona miss him , bitch !! hahaha . later uhs . dec aku turon hanoi carik dier . bwahaha ! otak aku nk carik satu hanoi sak ! hiDd says tt dey celebrated in d canteen den one grrl cried . aww so sweet . if i , i oso cry siia ! hahaha ! boo-hoos . GOODBYE CHINA BOY .

"You watch soccer ?"

"Nno .. Basketball !"

jus finished watching A Cinderella Story . gawd . its so touching . sadd .. n sweet . gawd i criied watching tt movie . wish my fairytale will come true . well if it doesnt come true , i jus hope my dreams will come true ...

SUCKERR !!! fuck tt crazee machine which make my legs weak ! tt stoopid treadmill ah siia .. n my bro forced me on it . well jus nw went to gym at central der .. gerek tu gerek ar . bt i will nvr go again sak . pakaian da la kental , kai coral t-shirt , sluar n kasot Reebok kentalan . ewwww !! i tink i lose some fats . n calories . hehe ! see me in great shape tmw ! ey .. prelims are in a few weeks time . n im dead sak . die . die . die . BANG ! ey u guys tink tt d china guy kewt nots ? tee-hee ! cute alrite .. i noe my taste . wahaha ! damn , im bored ..

my gawd . another skin ! wahaha . i keep changing it . cos its fun . wOoOoOo ~ dude , i fell off my bike jus nw sak . malu bodo . tu laa tgk laki2 lagik . wahaha ! i scraped my thigh . jus a small wound .. abit on my knee n foot . malu tu malu ah . paisey tu paisey ah . erk , saw shida . n a chinese guy . saw byk ampai2 . at d longkang near my hse gt 4 police car sak . dey interrogate 4 or 5 guys . duno wad crap la . FUCK POLICE ! hey , i bought brownies . fiqah , want some ? oOoOo ~ i`ve gt lotsa brownies . chocolatey as ever ! feel it melt in ur mouth .. uhhumm ~ twee twee ! hey ! yest i watched ONG BAK kedebak kedebuk . emakkcow ! gerek sak ! i watched it twice yest . so fun ! i rate it 5 stars ! i gt to learn some muay thai . jgn main2 . hahaha ! tu uh , apit , jage2 ehk ! mondae kau jage kau ! aku bukak muay thai baru tau ! weeee !.

haluu ! hehex .. t0dae was LATE again !! overslept sakk .. den had t0 walk ard d field 5 times n enj0yiing d wind . den i played SOFTBALL !! gereks .. i hit hard den fly high .. wooooooot !! i was d batter , i ran , YING XUAN ran . we CLASHED . she fell , i st0od n laughed . hahaha ! tk sangka seh dier yg jat0h nt me . was farking funnie . chester cudnt st0p laughing . den we had to play agianst another team wer i slide at my base loike real game liddat . wooooot !! d grass was wet s0 d slide was funn ~ hehekz .. okehs . t0 an0ther s0me0ne . d0nt act as if i dun0 . u lied . u might as well be a liar . av0id me , i d0nt care . lie t0 me , i CARE .

MY NEW SKIN ! hehe . aite ! todae gt RACIAL HARMONY concert . was damn blardee farnie sark ! cant stop laughing . its serioualy very2 farnie ! den aft tt we went to SUN YAT SEN museum . get too see pictures of pple`s head aft beiin beheaded . hehe . GEREK . den we go eat at LJS -Short Mary Gold . style .. kkz .. a short letter to tt someone . i hope u noe who u are : - hey .. im so sorrie for wad i`ve done . i noe i shudnt hav said wad i said . bt i cant stop myself from telling a frend the truth . mayb im beiin too honest . beiin TOO honest is baaad . and if i hav changed , i wud try to be who i am b4 . n if i hav hurt u badly , i am trully sorrie . mayb dis note wud nt be enuff to satisfy u , bt i wud be more than glad to do someting tt shows my full apologies . IM SORRY -

MY NEUU SKINN !! hahaha ! so blardee hell excited . argh ~ jus gt back from SUN YAT SEN museum . tiink im gona catch a cold .. cant stop sneezing . well nab dont hav a voiice todae . hehe .. get to see some artefacts . and pics of a person's head aft beiin beheaded . was FUN . hahaha ! den we go eatiing at LJS - Short Mary Gold . jus nw gt RACIAL HARMONY concert . farnie loike hell siiak ! cant stop laughing . blardee hell farniie .. LOLx . erm yeahh heres a someting fr tt someone . hope u noe who u are : - hey sorrie of wad had happened . dint mean to tell her tt bt i duno .. i jus had to . im so sincerely sorrie .. and its nt wrong if im the one to blame . cos yeah , im beiin to honest sometimes . bein TOO honest is baaad . so if i hav changed , i will try to be wad i am b4 . n if i hav hurt u , im trully sorrie . if dis note of apology is nt enuff , i wud be more than happy to do someting to show my apologies . -

ola ! smlm me n idz puasa seh ! c0ol ah ! dpt pahala ! hahaha . we went t0 d place wer idz hav her bdae bbq pit der . i teach her maths .. ROTATION , REFLECTION , TRANSLATION , SHEAR , STRETCH , ENLARGEMENT . ahakz .. we sit under a tree den d fl0wers fell on us everytime we did s0meting bad . especially wen "mengumpating" abt d d0uble-decker gerl . buested siia . we reali gt n0 strength sak .. was s0o tired . weak . fatigued . lifeless . hahaha . den we wr0te on d waterbreak . waterbreak; d st0ne2 area . at least i tink tt it is s0me waterbreak . den wen lo0king at d sea while listening to ip0d shuffle , den gt d s0ng ONLY ONE . swee siia wiv d wind blowing . wahlia0 .. haha , den we left der at 5 c0s idz g0ta c0llect her ez-link . den we t0ok 89 g0 d0wnt0wn .. we sat at burger king . den at abt 6.30 we saw dem .. haha . suddenly i gt strength , u !! hahaha . den we waited n c0unted every single min t0 7.15 ! we b0ught ice milo n nasi ayam which i cant finish n threw up all d food in my b0dy.. dint hav appetite dude . i *pr0ot*pr0ot* on d wae hm . hahakz ! n we did d MOONDANCE ! buskers . hahaha . den laugh2 den i went hm . idz g0 take cab . b0o-h0os .. yest was fun . FUN . hey . she read my diary ..

eyah0o !! i update again .. aft so long . ahakz .. haiish .. dis few daes i feel lost dude .. i gt n0 one t0 talk t0 .. i guess .. abt my life lar , precisely .. i feel c0nfused , lost , br0ken , jaded .. hahaha . ntah ehk .. i jus wrote a tw0 page long abt hw a feel dis few daes .. gerek ehk .. cn write c0mpo sak .. nw apit is loike , s0mbong already .. s0rrie t0 sae .. he aint loike b4 . hes alone , n he d0esnt c0nfide in me anim0re . i lost a frend . s0on i guess i will lose many m0re .. i hav f0und a frend , which i t0t i cud trust . bt , instead my frend has other plans in mind .. i guess lar .. s0 i s0ught help fr0m my very best frend .. i will tell her m0re tmw . den she will n0e hw i feel ! i f0und a new frend . my new frend is a very frendly pers0n n makes me laugh my t0es off .. i d0nt care if my frend is p0pular , unp0pular , hensem , nt hensem , pweety , nt pweety .. bt i still love them all .. awww ~ okeh ! im g0in cuck0o t0dae ! BYE !

da lamer tk update .. yeah .. mls . haha .. well .. n0ting much g0in on .. d punk/metal gig d other dae was best . state of decay maen ok uh . STATE OF DECAY KENTAL . hahaha . met lotsa new frends der . dey wer frendly .. guys are frendlier than gerls , WHY ?! den dint mosh . dey were all using fucken sidezips wif c0ne studs and its fucken g0na hurt .. some pple saw my "i LoVe u" undies . c0mments .. "PANTAT LAWA~" ahahaha ! ida ! read dis !! HE said my pantat lawa !! HE SAID IT ! im over d m0on ~ aper jeles kaper huh ?! tkya jeles ! de suker aku ! bkn kau laa .. tkm0 prasan !! de cal aku uh !!! hahaha ! t0dae one whole dae gad0 ngan ida .. b0ut ader laa nie ehem!ehem! . heh ! well fer th0se wh0 n0e pls keep ur m0uth shut . SHUT ! ZziPp ! hehex ! hes a frend of mine's frend . wahaha . yehh .. actuali t0dae i was supp0sed t0 feel d0wn . d0wn . d0wn . i am .. still .. bt trying t0 c0mpose maself back . be wh0 i used t0 be . nt t0 br0od over spilled milk . she came over , br0ke d news , tears fall d0wn , m0ment of silence as b0th frends weep .. wen she told me , i tried t0 hold back my tears . bt i jus cant . der is s0meting stuck in my thr0at tt i tried t0 f0rce it d0wn bt failed and it all jus gushed owt . m0re tears than i ever expected . it reali t0re my heart . m0re than jus t0re . its loike its .. ARGHH ! im SCARRED . i hav gt no one . i reali donn0e wad t0 d0 . seeing me cry makes her cry . n i jus cudnt get d w0rds outta my m0uth . its hard f0r me t0 handle such big impact tt suddenly hit me . i cudnt take it .. i lo0ked at d letter i wr0te . tears roll d0wn my cheeks as a flashback suddenly cr0ssed my mind . all seems s0 fast . im late . t0o late . ders n0 turning back time . its over .. ITS OVER .

apa khabar smue .. long time i nvr update . mls .. haha . lebih baek main paperdollheaven knz ! s0 s0 , i hate SOYAL . f0rever n ever ... n EVER !!! eeeeeee ! geram .. okie yest dint g0 t0 chem c0s dint n0e wart time tt ting start den overslept one h0ur .. m0m w0ke me up SCREAMING saying i missed m0i class n ida called me . babi knz .. haha . den i wan j0ti t0 teach me back ! if i g0 oso n0 use , loike i c0ncentrate c0s tt babi ida sit bside me talk r0t . ahakz ! den t0dae w0ke up early c0s my cuz'n , nima she blardee hell gave me wake up call at 12.30 .. she ask if im c0ming over t0 slp at my kak sedare hse c0s my kak sedare n her family went on hol till tues s0 we hav her hse all t0 ourself ! we hav t0 feed her dying cat . haha .. n wash d plants .. take care of d hse .. yerp .. n im sleeping der tmw .. i d0wana slp w/o my m0mmie !! haha .. tk biase uh . heh .. den aft i put d0wn d f0ne den i g0 switch on tv watch lilo n stitch .. abe tertd0 lagik .. sampai kol 3 .. ahakz . yest my m0m b0ught me SAP chem n phy .. den later i g0na study ! yesar ! haha . hmm .. t0nite i meeting j0tii i guess .. den i w0nt be h0me till tues pple !!

heyloo ! t0dae w0ke up at ..... 1.30 pm . i t0t i was early fer d kendarat bt actualli dey oready left at 11 siia . busted . hahaha . den t0dae nvr outs .. j0tii came here n "study" . haha .. hmm .. yest i went out ! wiv malek , ab , zai , nadia , faz , saf , fahmy n his gf . it was damn fun wiv dem ard . hahaha . ab n zai are craps .. j0kers . haha .. me , fahmy , faz , nadia , malek n ab g0 take train t0 d0uby ghaut wer we met saf n zai n fahmy gf . den we g0 eat at long j0hns .. den went t0 PS . in d lift .. w0ahh ! klaka siiak . as usual zai had t0 d0 his own stuffs . den tk bley tahan sey ketawe ! hehe . den we discussed wad sh0w we wana watch .. den we all wana watch GHOST TRAIN . sumer mati2 nk tgk bt its at 12.00 nyte . den me n malek cant , bt d rest puj0k kiter , say if we d0nt watch dey all d0nt watch . den malek told dem t0 g0 ahead aah . den dey sae see furs .. den we t0ok 14 t0 kat0ng . g0 jamming .. den tgh diri2 si zai maen tolak2 den i nearly fell . at tt p0int aleh2 wan followed by ariff kecik , harold n k0dy walk past me . ryte in fr0nt of me n i was loike "eh , wan !" den he smiled . d place cramp giler babi sak . w0kie we t0ok r0om one . den ab play drums , zai n me v0cals . nadia n faz gitar . malek bass . played latters t0 y0u , san dimas , in my eyes , no reas0n , friends of the enemy n m0re .. dint get d chance t0 play . bt nvr mind . nex time den .. den its nyte , t0ok 14 g0 t0 bed0k int . den take wad bus g0 TM . haha . onli me , nadia , malek , zai , ab n faz left . saf had t0 g0 hm den later he c0me back . fahmy n his gf g0 m0tek laa . haha . dey wana watch GHOST TRAIN . dey b0ught tix . den me n malek n nadia blah . nadia nk alek skejap .. take 81 den gt cute lil boi inside !! s0 kewt ! malek play wiv tt b0i . hehe ..den we went hm den i c0ok nasi wiv telor wiv h0td0g .. sedapp .. =P

haluuu !! t0dae was FUN ! went t0 sent0sa . haper sajer laa nie fadz kater i gi batam ! tu bs0k lerr ! narie gi sent0sa swimming2 , enj0y ! bs0k gi batam , tk sabar u !! hahaha . s0 hw was t0dae ? t0dae was damn FUN . even th0 its jus me , dayah , lynn , seha n wan , WE made it fun . yeahh .. wan was treated loike one of our gfs . s0 kewt ! pweety b0ii ~ heh . den wad arh .. we jus selam2 in d water . den pple saw fish loike a metre long .. was it ? no , lesser .. hmmz .. abt half a metre . loike tt loike tt larh !! den erm , lynn cook pasta !! s0o0o0o sedap !!! hehe . me n dayah d big eater ! haha . den , i felt lone ly ar .. my "siisters" wasnt der , seeing dayah , seha n lynn t0gether makes me feels s0 lonely . i t0t my sisters wud b der wen i need dem . wen im lonely .. SO ! da kol 4 liddat , we pack up .. w0re makeup . OH ! ader org tu pakai make-up gak , U !!! hahahaha !! hehehehawhawhaw !! heehaw ! heehaw ! den in d train , 4 of us stand in one c0rner while wan sat d0wn .. den kiter kaca02 wan , den wan JELING siia ! den dayah said , "makk ! bdk tu SE-TEP siiak !!" hahaha . at d same time in d train gt 2 minahs , den we did it purp0sely in a minah t0ne . haha . n bising siia in d train .. dun0 wad GORILLA wiv peace sign . we all laugh loike shit sey ! btol nyer tk bley ang ah tgk nie seha . prangai mcm j0ker siiak ! dey were s0 damn funny ! n seha t0ld us abt dis guy in d train earlier on , listening t0 lagu jiwang in his mp3 . dgn muker2 dier , mcm tgh shiok gtu ! ngan bibir dier , mater dier . hahahaha ! keykek ! den umm , went t0 eat at long j0hn silvers !! mmmm sedap ! den we gerls , i mean POMPAN TULEN g0 take 81 . wan , d fake gerl , pweety b0i took his own bus hm .. den i went hm , had to follow mom t0 loyang p0int . den driink c0ke float den THE END . my b0dy pain siia .. my arm 3-t0ne siiak . n0 m0re 2-t0ne . s0 uglyyyy . i feel loike im in d sea mann ..........

" t0dae is g0na be d dae tt dey g0na thr0w it back t0 u "

i wana g0 slp ! malas nk blog ! buhbyes ! tc every single one of everyone !!

nw imma at h0me . duhh ~ later mite owtz wiv br0 . n kak aisyah . n SEHA . blablabla . last nyte b4 sleep , talk wiv malek . abit chit chat wiv him abt our love lives . bt actualy talked abt his laa .. asked hw many ex he has .. which one he loves m0st . actually uh , malek is a nwice br0 . onli at nyte .. hahaha . i advised him on lotsa stuffs loike hw i advised FEEQ . hahaha . i cudnt f0rgive seha f0r breaking my br0's heart ! c0s tts bad ! bad bad bad ! hahaha . shes s0 nt nwice .. n shes loike .. OHMYGAWD . haha . h0h0 . hehe . huhu . hihi .

hmm . t0dae nvr outz again . i shud hav g0ne out wiv my m0msie ! c0s kak yam n her m0m came d0wn fr0m KL . den g0 masjid sultan .. den g0 jln2 . if i went owt wiv dem cn g0 eat siia . hishh !! heh . den rytes . last nyte played scrabble wiv ma man , my br0 laa ..he win ! nt fair ! he gt 255 p0ints den i get abt 183 ahh ! at least i gt sec0nd ! haha . k laa . nk g0 slp !! TTFN ! [tata f0r nw]

wad ahh .. t0dae g0 take ne0 again . den g0 play b0wling . wiv s0yal n buster0 . furs2 nk g0 play p0ol ... den loike s0 many chinese guys den we g0 play b0wling uh . i came in sec0nd !! weee` fadz gt last . n az gt furs ! s0yal btol ... hahaha . k i played quite well .. wakakaka ! s0 .. dis guy im chatting wiv fr0m my sk0ol is t0tally freaking me owt . i nvr knew him till i chat wiv him . n he n0es s0meting tt i fucking tink tt tt kinda guy d0nt n0e . u n0e ? argh !! nvm . hes t0tally freaking me owt siia ... eeee .. ok laa .. t0nite gt DIA !! n O.C n LOST . hahaha ! i hate fefe ! AND dwee is s0 b0do bin bahalol . stupid minah . hahaha , okay t0odles ~

ola pple ! hehe . t0 start it off , i was s0 mendak at h0me t0dae . seha ajk me kua , bt i s0me s0rta lazy t0 g0 owt wiv her .. vewy b0red ar kla0 kua ngan mina . haha . hmm .. yest i met j0ti .. was it yest ? or m0n ? haish .. im getting m0re n m0re f0rgettable these daes . i f0rget tings easily . hahas . n umm .. tmw mite outz wiv az n fadz aka s0yal n buster0 respectively . hehe .. dun0 uh play p0ol or b0wlingg .. h0pe is p0ol - swimming p0ol !! hehe . i mish swiimming . hey i hav d ryte t0 say i loike swimming even th0 i cant aye fadz . hehehe ! fadz nie ar ! sukerrrrrrrrr kut0k aku kater aku tatau swim bt water is fun aye .. at least nw i cn learn t0 at least fl0at . at least its s0meting .. hehehe ! oh well oh well ! gtg nw ! wana play bass again . org da b0red - b0ring - b0red0m !! tmw nk wear wad uh ? k BYE !!

ha0 pple ! hehe . nvr update yest rytes ? yest i study laa . study f0r mly 'O' level paper . den i watch Armagedd0n at d same time . d st0ry abit crappy larh . haha . ben affleck bukannyer hensem . liv tyler p0ngz bukannyer jambu . ahakz ! well t0dae gt my malay paper . g0sh . was hard mann . i tink . i TINK my paper 1 was okay . d c0mpo i put many bahasa berbunga siia . den my paper 2 .. wahh . susah sey . yg tk susah is d peribahasa n bina ayat . i tink others susah . d secti0n A1 n C is hard man . damn it . haha . i jus h0pe i pass !! eeee ! den went t0 d0wnt0wn t0 eat at KFC . b0ught d fillet meal at jus 2.95 . i repeat . at jus 2.95 . h0ho . ermz , i lost my sikat . n my EYELINER !! g0sh ! lost it AGAIN ! my third or f0urth time sak i lost an eyeliner . haiz ! jus as i cancelled my eyeliner at my wish list , i lost it ! i wana cry ! b0o-ho0s !! hahaha . okay la . n0 use crying over spilled milk . hahahakz ! bt i w0nt hav sikatt !! n als0 eyeliner !! help me !!

makk .. all my entries ilang seyy .. dun0 g0 wer .. hahaha . kkz buat b0do sua ~ hahaha . okae . m0ndae is m0ther t0ngue 'O' level n im s0 nt ready . i guess .. yest went t0 kak ija hse wiv nima t0 study malay . shes a tcher aft all .. n studied till 3am i guess .. slept der ar . was f0rced t0 . haha . n ermm .. did lotsa revisi0n paper fr0m diff skools . scary siia .. den im s0 new t0 lapt0ps , its hard fer me t0 use it . haha . lights owt , den lay d0wn on bed bside nima .. we lo0ked owt int0 d sky .. it was a very damn beautiful landscape . a view fr0m d ninth flo0r at 3am . makk .. it was s0 damn beautiful sakk ..

[fr0m up here the city lights burn , loike a th0usand miles of fire]

it lo0ks like a city wer orange lights lined up . n s0me white lights . wen u lie d0wn n lo0k up , u see d velvet sky wiv bright twinkling stars . it was s0 peaceful loike heaven . it was s0 preety .. oh well , alarm clock at 7am . blardee hell still sleepy . kak ija had t0 g0 skool . left s0me m0ney . den w0ke up at abt 11.30 . still fucking sleepy siiak . den eat mee kuay ti0w g0reng . pedas siia . i needed 4 glasses of iced water . hahaha . den buncit balek . den kak ija sent me n nima t0 bed0k interchange . i t0ok bus 17 h0me .. slept peacefully in d bus .......